Sunday, 31 July 2011


Today's greatest hits:

Flowers left by your bed
Careless whisper by George
Cruel Summer by Bananaramma
Re-issues of n.paradoxa
Buying tickets
Hologram cat covers for everything ever made
Licking sweaty skin

Tuesday, 28 June 2011

Errrrrm what?

What about Shep's grave you uncaring bastards?


part 2

Bit worried that I am deluded. I have stopped being with someone I loved so dearly, who I never went all jittery in my stomach for but when he was around I felt a bit more complete.

Being with him made me, realise that I am fine on my own. (Which is a paradox really cos are you not suppose to realise that when you are single or totally fucking miserable with someone else?)
But I wasn’t totally fucking miserable.
I felt like I had a great new add-on. Like a super version of that feeling of when you read a book and think “How did I get this long in my life with out know about this great book?”, and being really pleased that you now know of it’s existence because something about it feels so familiar to you and reassures you that this world is for you.

I feel deluded because as much as I try I understand why he has gone away. Around me people are annoyed on my behalf but I get it.
I really believe that he will come back.
But the thing that makes me feel really deluded is that if he does then the world will be a bit funnier and I get his chest to sleep on again but if he doesn’t then that’s okay. It really is and this is a bit of a first for me.

Coffee, sugar free red bull and some sour skittles and here it is ladies and gentlemen:

Feel proper weird at the moment.

Maybe it is the time of year which always makes me think about finishing exams and leaving school.

That summer I did the following:

Walked around corn fields, sitting amonst the corn so you could not see over, smoking fags with my two best friends. I now feel really bad when I heard 'Farming today' and they talk about low yealds.

Having long discussions about what was cool and who wasn’t.

Doing lots of things cos “it’s ironic yeah”, like wearing children’s jewellery and having crushes on Pete Sampras.

Spent a very long time perfecting a ‘look’ which was suppose to look oh so different from everyone else but instead I was one of many Britpop clones or on an outrageous day a mini Ms Love. I though wearing Converse one stars instead of Adidas gazelles gave me an ‘edge’.

Trying to out obscure and have the most diverse music collection I could so to out do my mates. (We managed to re-make the Haddaway album together – cos it was like ironic yeah?)

Anyway I feel proper weird and I keep getting little flashes of feelings from that summer. Like something is about to start.


Monday, 27 June 2011


Sunday, 26 June 2011

bloody loves it

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